Saturday, September 21, 2013

Tired...

BGM: Time - Hans Zimmer

Tired...tired...And so tired I feel...I just want to get up but a part of me is pulling me down...I am feeling paralyzed and numb...I am feeling weak and exhausted as if I just came out of a war...

And the silence around...is so strange...it is so silent that I can hear my heartbeat...so silent that I feel I am the last person on earth...The sun is looking so gloomy in the distance...almost swallowed by the clouds that I can't make out what time of the day it is...the sea in front of me is so strangely silent and calm that it seldom made a tide...is it tired too? I don’t know...the world around is looking so pale...I closed my eyes and listened...Nothing but my heartbeat and breath...

Where is everyone? Why isn't anyone around? Except for the sea in front and the infinity of sand that I could look into it, there seemed to be nothing...Why is it that I suddenly feel sad and lonely? Where is everyone who lived around me? Where is everyone who was part of my life? Why aren't they around anymore? Was it my mistake? Has the world ended? Or is this the end?

And my heart...I am feeling as if it wants to come out…it is chanting and reminding all that I wanted to do in life...and is slowly climbing up my chest...My mind is tired too...May be it is feeling the guilt of bringing me into this situation..

Where am I? Is it actually my life? Am I lost? Where am I supposed to go? Which way should I take if I make it to my feet? Which direction should I head to reach where I started from? To reinvent everything and everyone I liked and loved in life....to feel energy and adrenaline again...to breathe again...and to feel life again...


I want to get back to where I started from...I want to go home...But...My eyes are closing...Tired...tired ...and so tired I feel...I just want to get up but a part of me is pulling me down...I am feeling paralyzed and numb...Let me sleep...sleep and sleep...hoping to wake up somewhere beautiful...May be that’s the only way to get back...